25 Mar Charlie- A Tiny Slice of Heaven Who Chose Me Gone Back Home
Charlie- where do I begin…..
No words can express the love, empathy, joy and compassion you have given to all of us.
There is no creature on Earth that has exuded all the wonderful beauties of life in one tiny, but beautiful dog. Perhaps that is why God called you home after your mission and purpose was done but waaaaay too soon at age 5 becuase this congenital Cavalier King Charles Spaniel Mitral valve degeneration. It only took 4 months since we caught your problem until you knew you were dying, jumped up on the couch and gave me the last of 30 minute kisses and your last bath and salon appointment at Scenthound. The day before you died, you didn’t want to go outside even though you were at the door. When grandma let you out at 4am when you barked, you didn’t want to come in.’you wanted to die alone and spare us the pain and then I found you dead 1 hour later.
Our hearts are beyond devastated. Listening to your tags rattle on your collar like a cowbell and your snoring is missed every second. Grandmother praying her mantra 1024 times to Buddha after you died. Me talking smack to you but knowing I loved you more than you could imagine (and I think you do).
You chose me when I saw all your
Brothers at the breeder.‘you crawled into my lap and started to sleep. You, me, and Jim Beam when you were a puppy were buddies after my Afghanistan hell, divorce and hell I had in 2013. You brought Isabella your second mom into my life and we became a new married family with you in the center. You brought my estranged
Kids and your first mom Rachel (my daughter who I adopted you for to help her with eating disorders) and my former wife into all our families again. Finally, you made my transition from the Coast Guard to medically retired civilian life due to my severe PTSD exacerbation was as stress free as possible in Feb 2024.
I suppose that is when God called you home and told you your purpose and mission in life was done and to come home to give your endless love, empathy and compassion back to everyone in heaven and St Francis and everyone in heaven is a much better place.
But you also made the world and our lives a much better life. And there will never be another pet in this world that can fill the void in the universe that was left when you left.
Even though your ashes are with us, like Christ on Pentecost, we feel your
Love and presence like the dove that descended down from heaven when you died. You are always with us.
We love you. We miss you terribly and our hearts are broken becuase we selfishly wanted to love you more. But God has his plans and you are forever in our hearts.
Please wait for us Charlie when we reach heaven.
My Big Boy, I love you with all my heart and though God better have a god reason to take you away from this world way to early, know we tried ti love you as much as you loved us—-
That is a lesson no other human could impart to us.
And since you are a tiny piece of heaven given to us, you transformed all of us for the better and cannot wait to be in heaven where your let be and empathy abounds without pain is suffering and we can play and laugh and be together forever….
Charlie we eternally love you. We were blessed God allowed you to forever touch and change our lives for the better. And though we are distraught and beyond heartbroken, we will meet again when we reach heaven and can’t wait to be together again..
Rest in peace my Big Boy and my best friend . The world lost a perfect soul this week to God to come home and I hope I can do as good of a job as you did with the rest of my life til we meet again 🙂